28 August 2008

re: 9:39

i want to say how much i hate you
how much you have torn me

and i am trying to find my way back together
how you have
and broken
and made me a different, more skeptical person

made me tired


i want to say how
you are a bad,
bad, person
how you took advantage of me
how you used me
and hurt me

hurt me
and hurt me
and hurt me

but i can't

so i just say
"je veux t'oublier. laisse-moi tranquille." to your



empty words.


what else is new?

26 August 2008

9:39 AM (3 hours ago)

c est dommage ce ki est arrive je suis desole j aurai voulu que ce soit autremement j espere que tu vas bien

25 August 2008


lunch box and notebooks

today is everyday

10 August 2008

its not you, its me

Dear Paris,
By the time you read this I will be gone so there is no point in trying to stop me.
I remember when I first saw you, 8 years ago. You were so beautiful. I felt like we were immediately compatible.
It hasn’t always been easy. Off and on -- remember that gorgeous autumn we spent together in 2002? Or the spring trees in 2004? 2006 I’ll never forget. And summer of 2007 sealed the deal. I knew we could make it. Everything about you made me happy. When you weren’t around I thought of you constantly.
But lets face it- this year things have changed. Its been tough. I feel like I’m different, you are different... How can I put this? I need a break. I don’t think we should see each other for a while.
I realize this means I will probably have to hear stories of other girls being with you, how much fun they are having, how wonderful you are. I’m not going to pretend that it won’t be hard.
Its not you, its me. I need something different out of life now. I hope we can stay close, and, if it isn’t too improper to say, I feel we’ll be together again soon. But for now I ask that you respect my space.
Prenez soin de vous.

what does sabrina say?

'on va se mimoser......'
bring on the champagne

08 August 2008


you have your australian girl but at least i have my dignity.

miss maggie hall tore all he petals off of all the rosebuds.
"better to destroy it now than to let it slowly disappoint you."

we were just manifestations of each other's self loathing.

07 August 2008


berlin tea
in germany
you and me


04 August 2008

a wall is a wall is a wall

berlin is hot and shocking

two years ago
i was here

trying desperately to stop my own passivity and fall totally in love

this time
...(lets just say)
the irony is not lost on me