connections

when i feel lonely i think
of when i was on the island
in the
indian ocean
at a picnic in the
foggy, gloomy mountains
surrounded by my friends
the germans, the brits, the spaniards, the locals...
we ate prosciutto and tortilla and cari poulet and sammoussas,

and all the spanish kids started singing the
'fresh prince of bel air'
theme in spanish


and i was reminded of how connected we all are in the world,
silly as it sounds...

lucie bobs her hair

I will bob my hair, F Scott,
and you will
have nothing
caddy
or
nasty
to
say about it.
(Ha!)

nightmares and weekend melodrama (please disregard)

Melatonin,

Apparently,

Gives you nightmares.

As if the suburbs weren’t nightmare enough

I have dreams that men I am too good for

leave me

and some how

I get the short end of the stick.

I have dreams of falling into lakes

once covered with thick ice

Into the coldcoldcold water

and then I look for

my picture books.... I seriously dived back into the cold water for my memories. (inthedream)

And yet I still talk

with a translucent ghost

The professor who never was

never will be

who doesn’t have a clue...

I hold onto that stability like a life vest,

Apparently.

Ahhhhh nightmares

Such an archaic word

and still

in them

The world is all around (nohiding)

she is putting her life

up her nose

and there is me

watching

paralyzed

And I try to expel my body

get everything away from me

I do it

in every dream

and in every reality.

it leaves me sick and tired...

Apparently.

honesty

i will love the doctor

i will break the professor's heart

(when i'm ready)

Ms. Trudaline

trudaline
likes lemon cream
and tinned sardines
and movie screens

trudaline
has a golden sheen
and a sneaky scheme
to make martin scream