at first: hesitancy: “what are you doing tonight?” three times I said no.
then: frantic: nights on the town, restaurants with rectangular plates and bottles of fancy champagne. he kissed my neck and said pleaseplease: no. my intuition said. no.
we came to rest, subtle, settle, long nights horizontal and afternoon kisses. I gave in with delight: enthusiasm.
then: I put on my thrift store slip under my kimono, painted my toes red (like us: the town) waiting for him. he never came. he still hasn’t come.
he: drives a fast car. i’m back in
in two months. he tossed me before the expiration date. still haven’t learned to trust my instincts. paris